Drug Addict?!Zombie?!Lack of Sleep?!

I got back home at around 3 pm and I was sitting here and there without knowing what am I supposed to do and I suddenly saw the bicycle on TV. That made me remembered " Oh shit I was supposed to go ask for bike prices at the shop!". And so I called my mom because I needed the car. Tarak minyak, took her card and fueled up my car and went on ahead to the shop, surprisingly, I saw 1 of my old schoolmate from before, he looks somehow different now, from the full-of-sohainess attitude to the very-hardworking-guy in a workshop type. Even his droopy eyes suddenly became fucking big like those barbie dolls. So he introduced me 2 types of "normal" bikes that are suitable for rough usage, not for style or sporting. The one without the front absorber is RM 199 but he kira me RM 175 for that, rm 14 less! The other one was with a front absorber with the normal price that normally costs RM 22x but he gave me rm 195 for that, around RM 30 less but I kinda doubt the prices coz I still find the prices quite expensive, well I have to get agreement from my classmates before I book it from him. According to him, bike prices have gone up, I wonder but I don't care anyway, I will just see the response of my classmates first. Finishing the deal of the bikes, we suddenly talked about those old days in school, first we suddenly mentioned Kelvin, the "King of Vehicle Accident". The guy who had countless motorcycle accidents and a quite serious car crash which total losted- his car. Ok so no interesting points about him, then we suddenly talked about "Bao Pei", the bad-ass guy who picked a fight with me before but I never gave a fuck to him, according to my friend, he now take drugs despite the love that he gets from his family. He said that he looks like a living corpse now with the non-spirited eyesight of his. And then he suddenly asked me, "Lei dui ping ah?", I said "No ah, why?" He said " Coz ur eyes looks like someone who overuse drugs, or maybe it is because lack of sleep like I did last time?". I said yea la I never liked to sleep anyway, absolutely I wont do drugs btw, I got a brain to think even though I feel a bit curious. He suddenly told me to sleep early everyday and stuffs even though I dont really feel like listening to him, then he suddenly told me about the black mark on below his eyes and his droopy eyes problem he had before. "You remember the black mark below my eyes? See,it's gone, I went to the doc and he told me to sleep early and get used to it and it will get better eventually." I observed his face and found out that the mark is still there but it is really BARELY noticeable, and his eyes are sparkling bright now compared to last time, suddenly, his boss came back and told him to do some stuffs, so I said bye and went back home. I have been thinking to have a better schedule in my life but I can't really seem to think of one, it's really hard for me to sleep early already nowadays but I do really want back a healthy body, this body doesnt feel like the old me at all. I wish that I can get back the form that used to be in me...

Firstname: Leong
Nickname: Alot, like leong beng, ah beng, beng,bengbeng,dailou,fei lou, and now Chris
Name you wish you had: Nah it's fine as it is.
What do People normally Mistake your Name as: Leong Peng is somewhat dumb in duno which country's chinese, I forgot.
Birthday: 28th September, Resident Evil 3 players, the day the monsters overtook the city =D
Birthplace: HBKL ar if not wrong
Time of Birth: duno,passed midnight I guess
Single or Taken: single. alot of targets but does not have darts to throw.
Zodiac Sign: Libra


-Your Appearance-

How Tall are You: 179 cm, just 1 cm more for 6'0...give me that 1cm please.
Wish You were Taller: Just abit more.dun wanna be greedy
Eye Color: black.somewhat a little brownish.
Eye Color You want: bright brown.
Natural Hair Color: Black
Current Hair Color: Black+brown
Short or Long Hair: not really short,not really long but i do prefer long sometimes.
Ever Dye your Hair a Bizarre Color: white!
Last Time you did Something Dramatic with your Hair: I cut off my hard-grown hair over 4 months, next time im gonna keep it for 1 or 2 years.ehehe
Glasses or Contacts: none
Do you wear Make-up: of course not,im no ah-gua.
Ever had Hair Extensions: never.
Paint your Nails: i got forced to paint them 1 year back.black with some kind of love shaped decoration. shit


-In the Opposite Gender-

What Color Eyes: maroon or brown, but somtimes my heart will melt if i see natural bright green or bright blue of the westerners.
What Color Hair: anything
Shy or Outgoing: shy i guess
Looks or Personality: looks first, personality second. wont last long if personality isnt good
Sexy or Cute: both but i prefer cute over sexy.
Serious or Fun: serious but at the same time fun.
Older or Younger than You: i can cope with both but she should be older than me by TOO much
A Turn On: cute face with hot curves!
A Turn Off: smoking, extreme rude words
Flowers or Chocolates: chocolates
Pepsi or Coke: coke, for my daily coke!
Rap or Rock: rap even though i sometimes cant catch up.
Relationship or One Night Stand: relationship
School or Work: doesnt matter as long as we get to be together at times.
Love or Money: love for sure
Movies or Music: movies for "additional stuffs" in the cinema
Country or City:doesnt matter
Sunny or Rainy Days: not too sunny but i sure hate rainy days.
Friends or Family: depends, sometimes it's hard to decide although i usually go for the family first

-Have you Ever-

Lied: only to get myself out of trouble.
Stole Something: i did but only as an act of revenge to someone who stole my stuff before.
Smoked: i can use 10 fingers to count how many times i smoked.
Hurt Someone Close to You: i did even though my heart tells me not to,stupid mouth.
Broke Someone's heart: i guess i did but i dont actually know wats going on
Had your Heart Broken: erm...kinda immune to it since sudah kena alot of times, if im heartbroken again it will usually cure in a few days.
Wondered What was Wrong with You: sometimes i dont feel like myself.
Wish you were a Prince/Princess: nah those type of lifestyle doesnt suit me
Liked Someone who was Taken: did but i wont screw their relationship,dont have the guts to do it and dont feel like doing it
Shaved your head: nope,always longer than at least 3cm
Been in Love: of course, but not now
Used Chopsticks: aiya sure
Sang in the Mirror to Yourself: i did to confirm a ridiculous experiment,dont ask me wat is it about :P


-Favorites-

Flower: tak tau
Candy: anything chewable
Song: something that can blast my spirit away from me temporary
Scent: duno
Color: turquoise,teal,black
Movie: anything that involves the arts of fighting
Singer: those who sing good songs
Word: 'used to be 'mahai' but stopped that 2 years ago
Junk Food: potato chips
Website: www.idonthave1.com
Location: computer room
Animal: dogs, rat species but im somehow starting to like weirder stuffs such as iguanas and chameleons,hoping to raise 1 soon.

Ever cried over someone: only once,told myself not to be stupid anymore
Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself: get the fats out of me.
Do you think you're attractive: the most annoying question ever coz i wont ever know how to answer.
If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose: i dont choose fairytales ,i only hope to go back in time and live the life of those old warriors and heroes in war.
Do you play any sports: primary dodge ball, cycling, football secondary basketball, swimming,cycling currently working out,basketball,swimming,bowling,


The rules: -

1) Link to your tagger and post these rules.
2) List (8) random facts about yourself and tag (8) people

1. My name is Chris
2. im single
3. im available
4. i have a handphone
5. just ask if u want my number(oops this isnt a fact)
6. but i wont give it to you(unless u already have it la )
7. im being lame
8. since im really bored now

I tag -

1. Whoever
2. that
3. reads
4. my
5. blog
6. although
7. only
8. a few

Kerana Mulut Badan Binasa

Finally I know how it's like for the malay word above, there is something I would like to express out but I think it's better for me to keep my own problems for myself...I dont want the same thing to happen all over again..I can only say that I feel cheated...thats all,for those who know me,dont bother asking, I wont tell...

Move on

Week 2 in Sem 3 started, I'm dying trying to understand the matemathics thingie and I'm also dying to re-study for my account test and computer studies. I suck in maths and I can't do anything about it.

Now I only have 1 aim,I must pass this year with 2.0 cgpa which is quite easy. Why 2.0? It's coz according to someone, I can still continue on with my degree if I get 2.0 and I can come back to PJ to resit for the failed subjects, that's a relieve to hear but I told myself, that will be a total waste of time so starting next week, I will lock myself up with books, no more games, no more after-school-shoppings and all those lame stuffs I do to kill my time. I know this is a VERY HARD mission for me to accomplish but I must try, it's too late to back off now, I wont lose, u just wait, mother fucking subjects.

Under my own emo mood, but I dont wanna tell what is it.

-removed due to stupidness-

Ignore this post if anyone saw it

I'm Too Soft, I guess

I have to say that, I am indeed to soft. Today I'm finally free from the examatiness sickness and I'm glad that it finally ended. I also found out that someone is too innocent for me to be emo with and I'm glad, so...ignore my first post, I really cant put myself to be in this emoness for a long time and I'm glad once again that I can finally be normal, thousands of sorry if I offended u guys with this attitude. Once again, I promise to myself that I will change..change..change..change..

I got Tagged by Sammie.

Remove 1 question from below and add in your personal question, make it total of 20 questions.
Then tag to 11 people in your list. List them out at the end of the post.
Link to the one who tag you, then spread it to 11 people.
Let the game go on, return the tag to sender is prohibited.

1. Rainy days or sunny days? why?
- Neither, I used to love both of them when I was small but I think I'm sick of those days.

2. Which colour do you prefer?
- Black and turquoise, altho I dun really like my hair black=D. I used to have turquoise lens and I plan to get back a pair sooner or later.

3. Who would you marry?
- I don't know, someone who I think is ideal enuff for me, but I usually will go the path of 'love at first sight'.

4. What present would you prefer the best?
- Give me my punching bag and unlimited rolls of hand bandages. Ehehe.

5. What are you most afraid of losing.
- Losing myself and my family, I lost quite a number of friends so I am kinda immune to it but I still love my friends.

6. What is the sentence that you wanna say if you are given the chance to speak for the last time.
- You might take away my rights to speak but you will not take away my rights to live.

7. The dumbest thing you had done in your life.
- I attacked my own court in a basketball competition. Bahahaha!!

8. What qualities do you want in your other half?
- "Ngam key" is important, it's hard to tell but I duno how to explain this. The feel will just come when the time is right and I won't know why I fall for my other half.

9. Till now, what is the moment you regret the most?
- I lost 3 chances to confess to the ones I liked before and they got grabbed before I did. I did not at least even try.

10. Which type of person you hate most?
- Person who thinks that they are somehow more 'special' than others. They are proud of 'i dont know what they are proud of themselves' type of people.

11. What is your ambition?
- I wanted to be a scientist before but fuck it. It's over, now I just hope to get a stable job and enjoy my life doing the things I want. But I would like to be a professional baller IF I can do it.

12. Would you rather be someone else at this moment?
- Yup,the old me.

13. If you can have a dream to wish to come true, what would it be?
- I am granted the power to reverse time so I can make it all change so my life is not as sucky as now.

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- Myself, family and my friends.

15. Ever feel like dying in your life for once?
- Yeah sure, I got caught in a mudpool when I was small and it reached my neck. Luckily a passerby pulled me up.

16. What will you do if the world ends tomorrow?
- I'll try to die in a crazy way. Like jumping off from some high place and just go *splat*

17. Who do you wanna meet at least once before you die?
- Someone told me,before you die, your spirits will emerge from you body and fly away to the other world and you can see it with your eyes. Maybe that?

18. What would you do if you can turn the clock backwards and go back in time?
-I will return to the day where my chance appeared last time. I really miss those days where the crowd cheered for me and my team.

19. What was your dream during childhood?
- To grow up, but when I grow up, I realize that this dream is very disappointing. The older u grow, the more difficulty you have in your living.

20. What would you like to thank God for?
- What for? I never believed in the so-called-god.

i tag :
1. Mr Fuck the World 'Mark'
2. Wei Shioun
3. Carina
4. Meow
5. Sam
6. K2G
7. Steph
8. Damian
9. *to be added*
10. *to be added*
11. *to be added*

I tak tau nak tag siapa la..cincai la siapa nak buat pergi buat je la.

Fucked up day

Exam's near. I am fucking myself up with my no-discipline-ness, I am supposed to hide at home and study all I can to cover up for my fucked up Sem 1 in the coming finals. But guess what I did? I went out in the morning to settle my line thing. Ok count that out since it's quite an important business. So I reached my house at around 3 pm. Bryant called and asked me for a drink and so I went. We drank for about 1 hour and 30 minutes and that makes it 4.30 p.m. Not long after that, I went back home and played a game of DotA to ease my stress before I study, just a minute before my game ends. VL called and asked me to go basketball, so with my 'Basketball is my life' thinking, I agreed to go with him. I sucked today since I was so darn sleepy today, was really playing like a big sohai. So the game went on until 9.15 pm. Went back home and took my bath for 15 minutes..Guess what? Fai called me to go to CC with him. So with me thinking 'it's been a long time since we went out together to be luin sui' so again, I agreed to go with them. Arrived at the CC in Seri Petaling and Fai took his dinner, after that we went back in to the CC and played until 12.30 p.m. Well was quite happy today since we kinda showed our luin sui-ness. Again, we have our yam-cha session until 1am and I got home just a little while ago and suddenly I have this very guilty feeling. I passed the day without touching or even peeking at my notes. Will next week be my doom? I hope I will get the motivation to absorb whatever I can in my brain after my sleep time and cover all the time I have wasted in the past few days.

Thats all for my Fucked up day. Bye.

Things I Really Wanna Do But I Don't Have Enough Motivation

The things I wanna do on my list:

1: Study for my finals-I really feel like studying to score better this sem so I can cover back what I screwed at the past sem, I was hyped about it just last week but I seem to have lost it all this week somehow..Guess studying just isn't my style, but I really do hope I can do well, can't leave my UTAR friends after all we went through :(.

2: Build up my body in every aspect- Why building up? Because I know my body capability sucks, I think my body fat ratio is more than 25 %, and I blame my computer for that since it made me quit basketball few years ago and made me eat and eat and eat and hide and hide and hide in my house everyday without any sports. Why must I pump my body capability? This is for my 'who come who die' plan in basketball...ehehe. I have to build up my muscles and also train up my agility but can't seem to find the right time to train them. Why not? Because I'm lazy,simple enough.

3: Play basketball till I drop- I really like basketballing. I have really been missing it since I quitted during form 3. I miss the moment where I entered the Sin Chew cup along with my friends few years back where the crowds are cheering at us...The feeling is unforgettable...

4: Change my phone number- Why change? I hate to change since I have to notify everyone that I change my number and bla bla bla and stuffs but my Pa has been nagging and nagging and nagging since my bro kept on forgetting to pay my bills. The reason is he forgot because he was busy in his work but I kinda doubt it sometimes..Well I have no rights to complain, the bill is being paid by him and not me.

5: Change my phone- My phone is beginning to meet its end, sometimes I have to use a mirror's reflection to see text messages and the speaker is going to die soon too. It's been 3 years and I'm getting a new one pretty soon..so..bye bye e398!

6: Deciding whether I wanna continues studying or quit for work- Nowadays I keep receiving motivation from other peoples to just work directly and not wasting my time anymore. Khan a.k.a Brother Lan was the first to motivate me. He said he wasted quite some time studying and he now quitted and work hoping to open his own business soon. He told me his goal is to be a millionaire at the age of 26 or 27. I forgot about that but I really admire him...Ambitious guy. Seconds, I saw many people who did not study well even in their early ages and worked their ass out since they are young and guess what? They are so freaking rich now you wouldn't believe.

So long for the stuffs I wanna do,

Bye bye.

p/s: I feel quite hyper today since I did something stupid but I'm glad I did it :D

Trapped

Went through a hellish day, Bryant called and asked me to accompany him to mod his car and somehow I did, even though I know it's gonna be boring. Well it's the same thing if I hid in my house so why not? Went to Super Star in Kajang and arrived at 4.15p.m and walked for abit and began looking for the stuffs he wanted, so we got his window tints that he wanted and installed his cd player but could not find the body kit that he wanted so that's gonna be next time, but no more next time for me since it's hell for me. The fella said it's only going to be an hour or so but it took us freaging 4 hours and I was almost bored to death waiting. The results of the tint was not so impressive since the we cant see anything from the outside which made him worried getting caught by the cops. Ok so the promoter had this stupid idea which I don't know will work or not but I kinda like his idea. He taught us to roll some Rm1 around some white papers and give it to the cop when the cop wants to have his 'minum'. He said the cop will surely feel paiseh and quickly push the bucks into his pockets and asks u to go. Will try this if I have the opportunity :D.

First post

Let me have a brief introduction of myself, most of the readers might know I am a 19 years old guy/man/boy that are into normal relationships. Normal relationships means friends, buddies, relationship with women since I am a GUY, not GAY. Just because I am still available, you all think that I am into that kind of relationship? Gays? I don't hate gays it they are passive to me but don't fucking compare me with a gay. What's wrong with lifting my weights just because I want to build my muscles? Alright so according to someone, gays love bodybuilding, so the point is all bodybuilders are gay? And I am one too?

Let me repeat, I am a guy who likes and will love only women, so stop comparing me with a gay.

Let me say one of my favorite word that I never said for a long time; "Shut the fuck up and die" and get out from my life.

p/s: I am being emo, it's better to let my emoness out in this stupid blog thing rather than releasing it in real life, you all don't wanna see it,trust me.